I am having a bit of a crisis. I have acheived one of my dearest dreams. I am a mom. I remember being 10 years old and wanting to be a mom. I have a 15 year old and an 11 year old. They are amazing kids and I adore them. they arae past the truly needy point an into the needing guidance but not minute to minute attention. So now I am trying to figure out what’s next. I have been unsuccessful at a couple of jobs so far. One was just not a good fit wth the boss – we thought in very different ways – and the other was a sales position and I’m just not cut out for that apparently. So, it’s time to regroup and figure out what’s next. My husband suggested I find a hobby and see if that can make me happy.
He has a point actually. I haven’t had a hobby in years. I tend to start things and then, once I have all the supplies and have figured out the plan on how to do it, I am done with it. So crafts are not really for me. I need something that can be done in a day, maybe two. I was thinking about photography maybe. I can take pictures whenever and then process them later. Digitally process, not actual film, that would be too much right now. Anyone have any ideas of other quick and fun hobbbies I might try?
In other news, I am homeschooling the kids because of the plague this year. I have one who is fine with it and the other is being a butt. Every day. It’s wearing me out. I know how lucky I am to be able to do this. I appreciate just how Marie Antoinette my problems may be. My family life is amazing and we are priviliged enought to allow me to not work during this time and not feel the pinch of the Cornavirus. We are luckier than so many and my problems are definitely first world problems, but they are what I have and no less real for all of that.
I know so many other people have been where I am. You have achieved a dream and now are at a loss as to what to do next. What is the next dream? What is the next step? For me, it’s to find something that I can be passionate about. So, the search begins.